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Susannah Conway
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1. You’ve got nothing to write about.

2. I mean, you could write about how it feels to be getting older but there are older people than you online, who cares about your perspective?

3. And people younger than you don’t care what you have to say because you are now invisible to them.

4. It’s interesting that these are points 1 to 3. Did you realise you were feeling this way about aging?

5. You’ve been thinking you’ve got nothing left to heal, that you’re 50 now and all your shit has been sifted through and put away tidily — hence there’s nothing left to write about. But that’s not true, is it.

6. Why does writing online feel like it has to be deep and meaningful? Where did that come from from?

7. Maybe it’s a response to all the pointless stuff that litters the internet. Everything feels so disposable. Why bother adding to that noise?

8. But then why add to the silence of middle-aged women? Also, “middle-aged women” as a term and concept needs to die now. 

9. So what do you want to write about? 

10. When you think all the shit has been sifted and tidied it can feel like a void inside, but the void is actually a doorway leading inward.

11. What was that quote again? 

12. <can’t find the quote>

13. You live life more inwardly these days. I’m proud of you for loving it, claiming it, doing what you want. There is so much more freedom at this age.

14. And fear of loss. There’s a lot of fear of loss at this age.

15. The 18-year anniversary is this week. I see it floating around your head, but you don’t want to write about that. Save it for your journal.

16. Is this list helping to unblock the stream?

17. There’s so much to write about. 

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Sarah Chrosniak
Writes A Place to Flop
Mar 5Liked by Susannah Conway

This is brilliant and should be done more often. A complete thought cycle. It’s actually quite helpful to me - someone who can’t seem to figure out what to write -ever. I’m a perpetual stuck person. This is inspiring and I shall use it to write! Thank you!

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Maud
Mar 5Liked by Susannah Conway

You always have something to write and I really love how you write it - I read you from a few years now, I know you were in your 30s when I began to read your blog ( not sure I was in mine, maybe just before - we are 5 years apart). And your words helped me through all these times ... It’s amazing to follow someone that i don’t know IRL all these years ❤️.

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